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FIND A CURE

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October has many great Awareness that are important , and no cancer of any kind is good! Week three of the #Nycpaswackyspreads is ThinkPink in honor of Breastcancer.  So many women don’t even know the risk they have . Cancer sees no color nor age and it’s just a terrible thing in this life . I am not a big pink person but in October it’s the only time I wear pink.  I  placed these two themes in my Happy Planner 

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June 2016 Recap

 

Summer beach writing

The word Summer written on a sandy beach, with scuba mask, beach towel, starfish and flip flops (studio shot – warm color and directional light are intentional).

* It is crazy how there is only 6 months of 2016 left!It is very scary how fast life truly passes by. June has been a emotional Rollercoaster if I may say myself.  Highs and lows just like every other month, but this month as been a very challenging one!

Of course the beginning of the month started with mixed feelings and thoughts. I turned 26 on the first, (which honestly caused a wake call) It was not a great year of celebrating my 26 years on this earth ,but I am very grateful for having another day above ground.  The older you get, celebrating your birthday truly just becomes another day.

* A childhood friend  and I made amends to give our friendship one more try , which in my eyes was a blessing and a moment for growth in my eyes. I never thought we were going to be friends again because, how we ended our friendship 5-6 years ago.

*Finally took the first step in getting my license(ABOUT TIME!!), downloaded the Driver’s Manual for my state and began to read it. I am currently 3 chapters to finishing it, then I will go take my written test.  I am a little disappointed in myself for not reaching my goal of having it before my birthday, but I’m almost there. Procrastination at its finest..lol..not anymore more.

*I had to make some very hard decisions this month dealing with what is best for my life, growth and health. Removing people that would rather complain and be misunderstanding to my ways of making important changes for my life.  Standing up for my own right to life, even if it met other being mad for the choices

*Cupid has placed me in an awkward situation when he hit me with that stupid arrow! Dealing emotions, and distracting moves that make no sense at this time.

*Mxdbreedgraphix has become a hot commodity, which is a blessing as well as creating another level of growth in myself. I became apart of a Full Fledge Entertainment which, I am very honored , and blessed about being apart of this organization. It has been  very challenging for me ,due to the fact that I am working with different personalities. I have been filled with joy and happiness that I get the chance to show my talent, I know God is putting me in this place to see if I am truly ready to take this one full time!

As the month is rapidly coming to an end, and looking back at it, I am not in a rush to make major moves that can affect and set me back.

 

Birthday Recap! 6/1/16

Wednesday was my 26th birthday and it started very confusing in some ways. I got to eat breakfast with my mom which is always a highlight of my day. We ate at Ihop, which we do not really care for but, Jimmy’s Egg was full.  My  Cheesecake pancakes were not done all the way. Then we went to pay bills and then to Hobby Lobby, JoAnns and  Walgreens. I did not get much but that was okay. I was grateful for those who remembered and made me feel special, kind of sad for those who should have remembered and did not. Had Dinner with my Dad, Sister-in-law and Mom at Texas Roadhouse. Which my Dinner was decent but was not all that great.DSCN0388.JPG

All my awesome gifts 🙂 That I have received on my Birthday.

 

BeYouTiful:Your Inner Gemstone

 

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Favorite Gem: PEARL
Reason: it’s a gem that is often over looked and unappreciated. It takes years for a pearl to form into something beautiful and ready for its place in the jewelry world. It’s imperfections are beautiful even if it’s flawed more then a Diamond. I believe that I am more inspired by a lifetime of a Pearl because it hits close to home. A pearl is rubbed and irritated but everything around it until it is ready. I am pretty damn confident of myself now then I was a few years ago. I still have a lot of flaws that need major work.. But the person I’m ment to be I will be no matter what. Pearls are beautiful in their own way with all their imperfections as I am . It’s my birthstone as well. You have the diamonds doesn’t mean my worth went down.. Just means I rather not over shine when I have a simple classy way of living a life I love smile emoticon ‪#‎pearls‬ ‪#‎teal‬ ‪#‎black‬‪#‎selflove‬ #5716 ‪#‎mxdbreed‬

BeYouTiful:Self Reflection

Hey! Back with another BeYouTiful post! as you can see on the titles what this post is about! It picked the best day to finally sit down andtalk about it. This post was suppose to be up like a week ago but alot have been going on! so lets get into it!

Have you ever did something in life, that maybe made you feel like you should not have done it? How did you handle it?  I beleive this is a common thing we do as people. I am very certain that as a woman I tend to always self reflect more at night. which is sometimes not a very good thing because, my brain goes in to ticking mode.. and I will be up all night trying to figure out why i did something. or why I did this instead of that.  Self reflection is a good thing that many of us should do, but do it in a self evaluation progress instead of a negative way, which comes hard sometimes.  Sometimes after a dispute between a love one, or a loss of someone, our first reaction is, “What did I do for this not to work? or Why did God take my Grandmother and not me”,  I  tend to do this all the time still and not so much to beat myself up, but every situation I have been through I end up learning and changing as a person.

I have recently been in a  situation where I was so upset where I was thinking I was a terrible friend, and companion because it was always an argument or dispute, when I spoke up about what I did not appreicate, and the negative outlook that I had on it was making me pick myself apart. You can not look at it that way, do not give yourself the entire fault of something failing. You take responsiblity for your part, but understand that You are not a horrible person, you have to know your self worth, Never allow someone to degrade or decrease your value because they are upset.

It took me a long time and im still working on that way i self reflect myself because, I have always been a person who cares for others feelings before mine.. and it drove me INSANE! When things went wrong I always blamed myself and would revaluate myself in a negative light, to where it would cause me to stress and not enjoy life. That was not fun at all,not was it healthy.  I had to snap myself out of these phases because I would think I was a bad person, or a bad friend, knowing that I always give 100% in everything I do. Self Reflections is great because it allows you to see the changes, and struggles that you overcame. Makes you appreicate everyday that you are no longer in a dark spot in life, that at the time felt like was going to cause your world to stop.

I hope that this piece of BeYouTiful inspired someone or gave you some uplifting motivation. Feel free to comment about how you self reflect or if you have any suggestions on better ways to self reflect in the comment secton of this post!

 

Gemini Intellect : Music Of My Heart

It has been said that Music is the easiest way to express yourself. Which that is very much correct, the connection to a song when it comes on, helps you to understand what it is that your thinking about, or going through. Music can empower you as well as make some emotions more evident then others. There are songs that remind you of a time, person or moment that ment something to you.

Tonight the music has been speaking volumes to my spirit and my memory. Sending me into memory lane, as well as helping me  understand what I am feeling is not in vain. Its been a very crazy ride in this journey called life, and I turn to music, and other creative canvsas to help express my feelings and emotions.

Lazy Loveby Ne-yo ~ currently it doesn’t have a significance to my life at the moment. The story of the song, is pretty much, a man who loves to make love with his partner, and understands that its so amazing and good to where he is late for work. I would love to have a significant other that would stay home and just be intertwined in each other that our love is unbreakable.

Gone and Never Coming Back by Melanie Fiona~ Its always the song that I turn to when it comes to relationships. I’ve been in several Relationships where It was not safe for me to be in, but because I love hard and strong I try my best to make it work. When you always try to make someone understand how much you truly love them and they truly just don’t care and rather be somewhere else. Behing heartbroken from someone that you put time and love into its very hard to overcome but not impossible.

Body On Me by Rita Ora ft. Chris Brown~  This song just reminds me when I first meet someone that I really like and I get that “Highschool crush phase”, where you’re constantly thinking intimate thoughts about them. Realistic thoughts in your mind that seem very vivid and surreal. Especially when your miles apart which does not make the thoughts easier .

Next Time (won’t give my heart away) Keyshia Cole~ another one of those songs that helps a woman just chill, after a break up. I have a bad habit of given chances after chances knowing that things won’t change. Then I am on this self beating up when, I know that somethings are not my fault. Some things are not worht keeping or fightin for. Most of the time when I am going through a break-up or in my feelings I listen to Keyshia Cole.

You Aint Real ByCameron J(off Youtube) ~ This song has to be my shit. Many times when we are in relationships, where words are so comforting to the ear but not real to action. When you meet someone and smooth talk like its something you really want but come to find out you were just playing the part. If you can not be real about feelings or intentions then whats the point of being with someone. If you can’t do your part and always depending on the other person why waste time? Cameron just took all the words out of my head when He made this song. I kid you not.

Leaving Tonight By Ne-yo Ft. Jennifer Hudson~ When your are tired of being lied to by the one person that promised never to do so. When there is doubt, due to the way people act, or react when things are going on, or happening. When you’re officialy done working it out with the person, and they always trying to down play their wrong doings, and ready to just give it all up.

 

BeYouTiful Style :Hair

Every beautiful individual is blessed with his or her own style. This is something that makes you who you are wether it’s the way you wear your hair, the clothes you like, the men or women your attracted to . Style is you personal brand that sets you apart from other people, many of us have different level of styles as well. Let me give you some examples hopefully I will help someone out today 🤓!

  


 
When I was 13 , I discovered the world of hair manipulation, of course now I’m paying for it due to all the chemicals that have been in my hair. My hair style varies with my mood and my style of the season if that makes sense. I always wanted red hair . So back in 2012 I dyed my hair red and it was the most bad desicion because my hair is damaged from the bleaching but it was beautiful .  
 It did fade really fast and I had to re-dye it often which wasn’t good for my hair. My hair style also varies to wether I want it straight or curly. I have and still struggle with this dilemma if you will. I want to embrace my curls and have long healthy ones but my curls are hideous at times . My hair suffers from heat damage as well, cause there no month that I can go without straightening my hair which has messed up my curl pattern. I have been trying to make it healthy and all that.  

   
Back in 2015 I got my hair braided thinkin it would help and strengthen my hair and it did for the most part. It was a nice change for a few weeks. Loved these things.  

   

I’m not big on getting my nails done but when I do they aren’t all pink and bright . I have my girly days and I have my tomboy days. I always wear make up well eyeliner is a must but other girly things are not a everyday thing.  


 

I’ve dyed my hair so many colors some didn’t look right so there is no record of them or didn’t last longer then a few days . 💇🏽